Trust, Monogamy, and Master's Business Travels

Master finally returned to me yesterday after being out of town since last Monday. It is difficult for me to be away from the husband and Master I love so dearly, even though it has been common for him to travel throughout our relationship, and I'm quite used to it by now. Yet I have to admit I pleasantly spend this time by myself eating what I please, catching up with friends, watching trashy television, and doing anything else my slutty little heart desires within the constrains of our relationship. But I would honestly trade it for time spent with my husband any day of the week.

A couple nights ago I had a pretty terrible night's sleep; I was exhausted but unable to settle my mind or shut my eyes. I flipped from side to side, stomach to back but just couldn't get comfortable. Master's and my bedroom felt too drafty, but later I had to kick the comforter to the side as I suddenly woke up sweating. Every little noise in the house seemed to echo directly into my eardrum, as I lay there feeling more and more sorry for myself for the lack of rest.

I think my night got off to a bad start because I had tried to call my Master a little before midnight to say goodnight to him but received only a steady ringing followed by his sexy voice on his cell's answering message. I tried him again in case he hadn't been able to reach his phone, and left a message when his voicemail picked up for the second time. I tried not to sound worried in my message, because it's extremely uncommon for him to miss my call.

When I called him back about twenty minutes later, a very sleepy sounding Master answered the phone and said he had fallen asleep watching TV in his hotel room, the poor thing. There was a time in our relationship that I would have been very upset about not being able to reach him that late, but after our years together, Master and I have developed a wonderful foundation of trust between us. If I was worried, it's because I thought something may have happened to him or his phone. But even then the lag between calls was apparently enough to set me on edge for the rest of the night. I miss him very much when he's gone, and it's hard for me when he's away because I like our routine together.

Like many relationships, jealousy was an issue for us at the beginning. Master and I had a whirlwind romance and moved in together very quickly, my first time living with a romantic partner. We had literally just moved our belongings into our apartment and I was putting my shoes away in our new, joint closet when I remember hearing him in the other room flirting with another woman on the phone. I went totally ballistic and was this close to leaving, for real, for good. He said he had wanted to see how I would respond (!), and was apparently happy I reacted the way I did. I had previously told him I wasn't really a jealous person and hadn't had jealousy issues in past relationships, and I think he was testing me. Noted. Nothing like that has ever happened in the years since.

After years of growing our relationship, I do trust Mater explicitly when he's gone. Although I am his submissive, it would not be OK with me if he were to interact on any kind of emotional or sexual level with other woman, and I think Master might kill me if I did something of the sort with another person. (I'm kidding, I think.) Going outside of our relationship would be a serious betrayal of the trust we have cemented together.

Master and I have been strictly monogamous up to this point in our relationship and marriage (although a threesome with another woman is something that very much appeals to both of us), and I love the sense of security that marriage brings. I understand that many people think monogamy is a biological unreality, want to have multiple partners, or enter into a relationship because of societal pressure to settle down only to fail their partner by cheating. But Master and I have made it a priority to meet each other's needs and truly believe in the profound potential of marriage. There is something very special in honoring your spouse and strengthening the love that grows between you.

So I now just relax, settle in, and do some things around the house that Master doesn't really like when he's gone. And wait for him to return, trusting that he loves me, is faithful to me, and wouldn't do anything to hurt me.

I am glad that my Master is home again; there is nothing in the world like the feeling of being in his arms: safe, secure, wildly in love, and totally trusting.

xoxo, Slut