I Want to Be a Better Submissive for Master

Before publishing my post yesterday, Master read it over for approval. I know he liked it because he said so. However, he also told me he thought that I was "sneaky." Sneaky!

He was referring to the section where he asked for my reaction to what he had written about his plans for me on Slut Saturday, and I described ignoring the part about going to the grocery store with my facial and just focused on the butt plug part. I didn't lie to him or disobey him by steering the conversation where I wanted, but he's right that I knew what I was doing by not mentioning the store. It was willful omission on my part, and it was pretty sneaky...

When Master and I are involved in a sexual scenario, I am very obedient and listen to him perfectly, I am proud to say, and he expects this of me.  However, when we are in our D/s roles but are not in an immediately sexual situation, I do find it harder to be truly submissive to him, and I think he also find it challenging to enforce his dominance over me in these times. Master calling me "sneaky" made me realize that as a submissive, I can, at times, be a bit like a spoiled child: manipulative and used to getting my own way. Awful, I know!

My Master is a very nice man. He is kind, loving, and sensitive to my needs as he tries to make sure I am happy. I think that he values having a true partner in marriage and married this headstrong American because he loves my passionate spirit. So in many respects, Master and I have a strange dynamic for a D/s couple in that we hold very egalitarian footing at times, something that both of us cherish.

Clearly, Master feels very comfortable in his dominant role when we're playing together. And he is getting better at keeping me disciplined when we are going about our daily business but operating within our Master-slut guidelines. I very much like when he does take a firm stance with me and doesn't allow any shenanigans on my part. Throughout our relationship he has always been a very good influence on me. I accomplish more when I follow his lead, and I have far more fun in the process.

I suppose D/s relationships could be compared to a parent-child relationship in some ways. The authority figure in both relationship dynamics has a responsibility to set rules and guidelines the obeying party is expected to follow. It is also up to the authority figure to enforce those rules. I actually like it when Master tells me what to do and how to spend my time when I am acting under this thumb. I like it even more when he disciplines me for not following his wishes, something of which I think I need more. I wish we could operate in this kind of capacity more of the time.

But I think he sometimes feels strange enforcing power over me when we're not in a sexual capacity, and this can lead to me taking advantage of things for my benefit. I think he sometimes just doesn't want the responsibility. I think he admires my inner strength and doesn't want to tap it out. I also think he sometimes doesn't want to be in a sexually-charged atmosphere at all times. Whatever the reason, I do think he sporadically struggles with this.

Like in any marriage, Master and I face some communication difficulties often exacerbated by our cultural and language differences. We are both very strong, dynamic people who are extremely stubborn. We both find it difficult to back down in a fight with one another. I do feel that most marriages that I have seen that are happy and successful seem to have one thing in common: one spouse seems to take the day-to-day decision-making role while the other more or less takes a back-seat about daily duties and speaks up about daily logistics only when necessary and appropriate.

I think it would be very beneficial to our relationship if we were able to work out a functioning dynamic like I describe above. I know it would at times be very hard for me to navigate in more of an everyday submissive role with my husband, but I do truly believe it will be better for our communication, relationship, and even our sex life. I think it will reduce the amount of miscommunication we have between us, and that can only lead to greater happiness.

I want to be a good girl for my Master at all times. I don't want to be sneaky!

Any suggestions of or illustrations for how you handle this aspect of D/s play in your life would be much appreciated! I want to be a better submissive for my husband. I want that for our life together, for his benefit, for our communication, and for my own happiness. I want that because I love my Master.

xoxo, Slut

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